I know it’s a bit of a contradiction to say that I’m too busy to live simply, but that’s how it is at the moment. Since I started my job 2 months ago, a lot of the good intentions I had about trying to live simply has fallen by the wayside. It’s hard to focus on living intentionally when you’re just focused on getting through each day.
My day starts with my alarm going off at 6:30am, followed by me hitting snooze until 7:15am. I then rush to feed my cat, hop in the shower (moisturise if it’s a good day and I remember), pull on some clean clothes, put on sunscreen, grab my stuff and run out the door. I’m usually at work by 8:30am and I usually finish at 5:15-5:30pm. If I’m feeling motivated I’ll walk home instead of catching the bus and because I live 5.5kms from work, the walk usually takes me an hour. When I get home I immediately hug my cat and then feed him, before crashing on my bed to watch YouTube until I get hungry (usually around 6.30 or 7pm). After dinner I’ll usually do some online shopping and more youtube along with a couple of chores. Then at 10:45-11:00pm I’ll start getting ready for bed. Before going to sleep I’ll listen to some music and usually fall asleep around midnight.
Outside of work, 80% of what happens in my day that I’ve written above is not how I want my day to go.
I don’t want to be hitting snooze for 45mins, or getting out of bed at 7:15am. I don’t want to be rushing with my morning routine and making a half-arsed attempt at looking decent. I want to exercise more rather than just walking home once or twice a week. I don’t want to come home and immediate start watching YouTube. And I most definitely DO NOT WANT to be online shopping almost every night.
So why do I do it? The answer is I seriously don’t know.
I feel like watching YouTube and online shopping does two things for me:
- Allows me to switch my brain off
- Offers me a way to obtain (very momentary) happiness/satisfaction
I know that my new job has been quite intense, I’ve had to learn a lot of new, complicated, difficult things like coding, data integrations, new systems, etc…all things which have always been in the peripheral of marketing, but not things that I’ve actually had to do before or engage in.
This means at the end of the day I just want to switch my brain off, because I feel like if I don’t, it may just explode. As I’ve settled into my job, I feel like this is easing off a bit and now I feel more prepared to go back to trying to simplify my life.
My new job also meant I bought a lot of new clothes, shoes and bags. I really wanted to look more professional and also to look the part for my new role (which involves client meetings – something that I didn’t need to do in my previous role). Because of this I’ve fallen back to old habits and have bought a lot of things over the past 2 months. I’ve decided that this needs to stop.
Two good things that I am proud to say I have been able to keep up somewhat is having a more plant-based diet and also not smoking as much. When I started my new job I started smoking again (about a pack a week). Now I’ve got an e-cigarette (vape) which I love. I actually prefer this a lot more to smoking and now the taste of a cigarette seems disgusting compared to Cola or Apple Crumble flavoured vape.
Secondly, I did the two-week vegetarian challenge and made it. After completing that I realised that:
- It wasn’t as hard as I thought to not eat meat
- I didn’t miss meat as much as I thought I would
- Meat didn’t taste as good as I remembered it when I did start eating it again
So now I am trying to be at least part-time vegetarian and I’m doing ok so far. Usually I’ll have 2-3 days a week where I don’t eat any meat at all and then the remaining days I’ll have a little bit of meat. I plan to increase my vegetarian days to 4, even 5 days a week over the next few months. I find that being a vegetarian is easier when you’re eating at home and taking home prepared food to work. It becomes a lot harder when you eat out and by food outside….the vegetarian options exist, but a lot more limited when compared to the meat options available.
Anyway, I am going to try my best to get myself back on track over the next month and hopefully re-start my year of simple.